Business as usual for some, but not for us

As the COVID-19 numbers go up, so does our stress level

COVID-19 numbers are raging across the country, but it’s business as usual in so many ways.

As much as I want to freely live our lives, I can’t. Everything we do continues to require extra thought, planning and stress, when we are already at our limits.

Our family for the most part has been in seclusion since March.

Carter is learning remotely, which is another level of frustration. My husband, Chris, is working from our basement, and Aubrey and I hardly go anywhere. The kids still don’t go to stores, we don’t eat out in restaurants and I quit my part-time bartending job. Without a doubt this has cost us a lot of friends.

We do interact with a small “pod,” though any time one of our “pod” members socializes with someone outside the pod or attends an event or activity, we have to think – again — about how long we space ourselves, etc.

Halloween this year brought about so much anxiety. What should have been easy – buy candy, hand it out, dress up and go door-to-door — ended with an elaborate celebration with our pod. It was amazing and we all had a blast, but it took more money, more effort and more thought into how we could keep ourselves safe.

It also took a warm fire, winter coats and snow boots to stay warm because inside celebrations for us are a no-go.

I know eventually we will phase back into some sense of normalcy, but I wonder what the long-term effects of all of this will be on our children. My son on the spectrum craves socialization with his peers and it’s the one thing we can’t provide.

I also know in my heart we are doing the right thing for our family. We are protecting our elderly mothers, one who is immunocompromised; we are protecting our children who the past few years have been sick from November to April; and we are doing what is right for the greater good.

But we still feel sadness, loneliness and disappointment.

Life continues to be weird but we try to adapt and live in the moments that we have with our amazing pod and each other.

Lauren Martone is a blogger for ParentingNH from southern New Hampshire. You can contact her at lmart0825@gmail.com. Lauren and her family’s story were featured in the July 2015 issue of ParentingNH and in the July 2018 issue.

 

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