A new season is upon us, with all its pros and cons

There's a lot to love about the fall, but I'm missing the spontaneity of summer

I love fall weather. I love, LOVE fall foliage and feel very fortunate we live in an area where beauty shines.

There are cooler nights for sleeping with windows wide open, comfy sweatshirts and slow cooker meals.

But the end of summer always brings about sadness. I already miss the freedoms – however restricted they were this year- of no schedule and routine, the long summer nights and the spontaneous cookouts with friends.

I dislike winter. I loathe the bitter cold more than anything else. Even  more than eggs and I really don’t like eggs. I wonder why I stick around this area. But then I remember… family, friends, the comfort of home, the beauty of the area and my intense dislike for change.

I am thankful that I seem to be gaining a more solid grasp on my depression this last week because fall always brings about some seasonal change sadness.  I am happy to report my mood according to my scale is really about a solid 7, sometimes 8.

There has been a lot of joy in my life lately and it has been so helpful. My anxiety, however – yikes – it’s a spiral staircase. Trying to get a decent grasp on it has not been easy.

I know it continues to boil down to the feeling of everything being unknown, uneasy and out of control. And I know that I am not alone. I continue to hear from others about their heightened anxieties, depressions and worries.

The universe seems to be telling us all to relinquish control and live more in the moment. It’s so stinking hard though. We just need to continue to push forward, embrace the joys to the core and push the nonsense to the side.

When the light is at the end of the tunnel, life is moving in the right direction.

Lauren Martone is a blogger for ParentingNH from southern New Hampshire. You can contact her at lmart0825@gmail.com. Lauren and her family’s story were featured in the July 2015 issue of ParentingNH and in the July 2018 issue.


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